I am not what i used to be.

Wo yao mai Lumix LX3!

Yah,buy that & i will have to live with bread and ice kousong everyday!

Money is the root of all evil, gimme all your evil!

 

 

I’ve got the fever,i’m hot & i cant be stop.

My head weighs a ton nao, and i’m very drowsy but i still have to finish all my reports & datashits before i can have all the fun for the weekends! ( two weeks of confinement is finally over for C!)

This is my virgin fever attack of two oh oh nine! Wonder why?

Maybe might be perhaps probably because:

1. I refused to eat the apple my daddy prepared on wednesday morning.
2. The spicy mayo fried fish @ FC4! (it’s dry and spicy and not tasty at all!)
3. Too eggcited to meet C on friday!
4. The drastic changes in my mood caused an inflood of bacteria and viruses!
5. Too sad that i can finally stop giving tuition forever happily ever after!( Bull-poop!)
6. My “eagerness” to do fyp on friday!
7. The reality talk with PD on tuesday! ( Which caused me to think veh much.)
8. Sleeping late habits, lazy to bring water bottle, rice without vegetables, too much snacking!

Okay, everything is the cause except point eight! Taha.

Black sunday.

FML.

Everything that happened two years ago is happening all over again. I dont know why i have to be such a situation. It’s so minor, yet it’s making me so miserable. Something so harmless, so motiveless, so nothing can turn into something ugly.

I hate to swallow all my anger, my misery. I hate it to have to accept all the faults when i didnt do anything wrong. Swallow it swallow it, so that the others wont be caught in the difficult position. Swallow it like how you once did,swallow it because she’s more upset than you now, swallow it because you’re at fault, swallow it because it’s so minor. Swallow it, try to put yrself in her shoes. FML.

I need to stop crying over this. This is the second cry fest of this week, two different issues, two much for me to take. I hate Wednesday & Sunday!

I dont know since when i have become so emotional, since break up, since my parents decided to go china for a year. Since staying at home have turn into misery. Since i forgot about who are the people who really loves me. Since no new clothes make me feel good anymore. Since going to church become a chore. Since i dont know what makes me happy anymore. Since i wonder if God has forgotten about me.

I’m sucha loser, big time.

First and the last.

First week,last sem.

Now that i’m not liking school, i’m certain that i’ll miss it when it’s over!

First week of school has been a breeze! I’m starting to like my class better, i’m starting to irritate everyone in mua class with my nonsense! Taha.

I know i’ve got the cutestttttttt iphone on planet Earth! Everyone should stop peeping @ my imonster!

Good things that happened this week:

1. Supper on Monday night after my tiring tuition with W!

2.Six hours of prac plus lectures cancelled on tuesday which leaves me to meeting W & C up @ bugis! It’s crazy, we met @ 11am @ bugis, i must be crazy to agree.

3. I like Mdm Lau because she’s new/enthusiastic and most importantly she remembers no one but my big name!

4. Fyp results this week was the best ever! Thank God! I hope i can stop frying cheeekennnn nuggets real soon!

5.  I finally get to drink my comforting FC3 mango milk! I didnt pay because i actually won a bet!

6. I found something really tasty @ FC4! Finally some decent food in SP!

7. Mr ZzZ called me pretty girl! Okay, it’s lame.

8. Almost routine dinner with W today!

Now,the bad ones:

1. Mr Fooooool is really an ass.

2. CSW sucks to the core. My laptop needs to take attendance every week, full of shit.

3. C enlisted today. And i can feel the difference! I think he got into a tiny trouble when he called me just now.

4. Where’s my BestFriend in school? Lol.

Stop here for the bad ones, this will make my week looks bad when it’s actually alright!

Sidetrack: I bury a paper star somewhere today, i’ll visit it one week later and see if it’s still there! It’s silly, but i think i’mquitecuteuh.

Runaway runaway, running as fast as i could

Swp emailed me to ask me how am I with everything.

I thought I’m okay, but right now I’m all teary again after replying the email.

I don’t know how to cope, I don’t know how I should be behaving, what should I be feeling. I just know right now I don’t want to think about it. I don’t want to keep hiding in the kitchen to cry like a baby!

Is this how it feels like to be abandon?
Yes I think it is.

Just one more moment,that’s all that’s needed

My favourite peekure of the season!

I’m having mussels egg all over, making me all lethargic :/ Dont feel like talking,dont feel like doing anything that’s important.

Starting school blues is getting to me. I so wish with all my heart that i monday dont come, that the crazy rat race wont begin.

This few days is crazily bee-zee, after tomorrow, i’ll be relieved of the stress of birthday planning! It sucks to not think of some wow fantastic idea, and to be stucked. I’m thinking of how to improve to perfect everything every other moment, but all the ideas seemed too lame. Keeping my finger cross that everything will turn out fun,enjoyable and most importantly bring much joy to the birthday one!

Everything is confirmed. But i feel nothing right now. Yet i wish that everyone dont talk to me about it because i see no point in discussing knowing that it makes no diff in what’s going to happen/what already happened.

But I know in time, we’ll find this was no surprise.

One week of cry fest is wearing me out, it sucks to have to end my exciting holidays with such a anti-climax ending. Then again, it’s not confirm yet, so i should pick myself up and live my happy life.

One last week of holiday! I can imagine how depressed i will be when school begins. Walking around SP with my head down, talk like robots, think like mental patient. Okay anyhow, i’m spouting nonsense!

The finale week of the six weeks holidays will be awesome!

1. Celebrate C’s birthday & enlistment! ( Of which i’m suppose to get my lazy ass to some serious planning!)
2. Hang out @ timbre! (Everyone loves beer belly!)
3. Sentosa! ( I wanna get a sexy golden brown tan prease!)
4. Cousin wedding! ( I need a pair of killer heels! But i’m real lazy.)
5. FYP ( Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!)

& I dont want to think about what’s going to come around for me,
I’ll just take it day by day cause
that’s the only way to be the best that I can be.

Nobody loves me anymore.

I’m feeling down down down down down, the sky’s falling down down down down down.

I’m just so brothered by everything. Just can’t stop crying. Hate that I have to pretend that I’m okay I’m alright I will be fine in front of everyone, but yet I don’t want to be a weakling or a cry baby loser.

I feel so abandon. Like those stray cats & dogs that nobody wants, I feel like I’m them.

Love at its best

” Haha, you and your spellings.”

This spells me! *Ris low’s tone! Kakaka!*

March 2010

Till then, i will be able to cope with it.

Or at least, I believe I can.